Some facts about who I am, and the story about my relation to porn
Updated: November 22, 2024
Name: Kristian (Krizzy)
Age: 51 (Born 17. February 1973)
Hometown: Bergen, Norway
Marital status: Married, open relationship
Height/Weight: 178 cm/101 kg (November 2024)
Body: Chubby, bear
Body hair:
Enough
(Except from on my head)
Facial hair: Varies (I see the barber every 2nd month
)
STD: Negative, on prep (Last tested November 2024)
Position: Bottom versatile (90% bottom)
Favourite sex: Give blowjobs and get fucked
Fetishes: Pup play, dad-son, glory holes, cum, group, public sex
Dream partner: Hung, (slim/fit), younger top or versatile
Love my pup mask, and ill be more than willing to play with you if you like.
Introduction
My name is Kristian (Krizzy), a Norwegian chubby hairy bear. On the internet I mostly operate under my alter ego NorwegianBear.
I was born on Stord, a small island on the Norwegian west coast, on the 17th February 1973. Today I am open gay, married in an open relationship, and I love making gay amateur porn.
If you would like to know more about me, you can read about me in this section. The section includes the story about how I learnt to masturbate, when I began wondering if I was gay, read about my first gay experience, and my
"relationship" with and
interest for (gay) porn
.
Whether you would like to read this section, or only look at the pictures, I hope you will enjoy some parts of it.
Thank you for visitting my "cave"
Something white and sticky came out of my penis....and (I think) I liked it
I can´t remember when I discovered that there where more than pee that could come out of my cock, but I believe that it was sometime between I was 11 or 12.
Me and some friends were looking through files on a floppy I had got for my Commodore 64. The floppy contained various games and programs, among them a file named "Liten gris”. In Norwegian that means "little pig", and we wondered what game that could be. The original title for the program was “Piccolo Mouso”, and it was a program showing an animation of a boy/man who was moving his hand up and down on his cock until something white flushed out of it. As none of us had never wanked before, we thought that the animation showed him peeing on him self, we and found it rather amusing.
One morning I was just sitting there in my bed, and did the same thing that I had seen in the animation. Suddenly I felt a strange feeling, and a white, sticky substance erupted from my cock. At first I did not understand what it was, but this was the first time I saw sperm. I liked the feeling and found doing it very exciting, and offcourse I continued to do it often.
The Commodore 64 program that thought me how to masturbate.
Love to cum, and love cum. Especially love cum from others.
I would look through erotic magazines to see if there were any pictures including nude guys. Typically there would never be a picture of a single nude guy in the magazines I had access to.
I would, as discretely as I could, look at guys in the shower. I was always a bit afraid they would understand I was looking at their cocks, and that I would get a hardon.
The first times I tasted cum was my own. When I was 15, I got to taste the cum of a classmate.
A list over gay porn movies as they were presented in a Norwegian erotic magazine.
Though the movie covers were censored, I looked at them for long times, fantasising about gay sex , and hopefully a cock or two would have been overseen during censor.
Am I gay?
Some time during junior high school, I began to feel more interest for the guys in my class rather than for the girls. This together with me getting more and more found of one om my male classmates, made be beguin wondering if I gay.
When we were in the shower after gym, I found that I liked to look at naked guys. I especially liker to look at one of my classmates who was really hung, and I had fantasies about how it would be to touch his cock.
If I got hand of an erotic magazine, I would look at the guys in the pictures rather than the girls. The magazines I could get in hand were written primarily for a heterosexual audience, so there were not many pictures of single guys. Some of the magazines would however sometimes include gay erotic novels.
The favourite part of a magazine would be if there was an overview of porn movies one could order through postal order from abroad. In one of the magazines there would often also be an overview over gay porn. Even though the Norwegian law demanded pictures of an erect cock or pictures depicting sexual activites to be cesored, I could still stare at the movie covers for long periodes while I fantasized about gay sex. It was especially pictures with blowjobs that turned me most on.
At a moment I started to taste and swallow my own sperm when I was wanking, and would sometimes lay down with my cock over my face and shoot the load into mouth or over my face. A big dream was to taste someone else’s sperm.
There is a first time for everything
In the last year at junior high a new boy began in my class. We found that we shared many common interests, and quickly connected. Sometime during the first semester he visited me at home after school. I can´t remember if we were going to study together, watch a movie, or just hang out as boys around 15 use to do.
We spent most of the time in my room, while my my parents and my brother was mostly on the upper floor. We talked about much, and offcourse we also started to talk about sex. Suddenly he asked if I wanted to wank. I was quite surprised, and answered "why not". When I saw his big stiff cock, I got an instamt hardon. Soon we were sitting next to each other in my coach jakcing off. It was a dream coming true to sit next to an other boy, watching him play with is stiff cock.
He told me that I could touch his cock if I wanted to, and for a while we were wanking each other. I realised that this could be my chance to maybe get to taste someones cock, and told him that I was a bit curious about that. I felt a big relief when he just said "why not taste mine?”
I could not believe that finally my big dream would come true, and for the first time closed my lips around a cock. I enjoyed how nice it felt to have a warm hard cock in my mouth, and I fell in love with the taste of it. I changed between licking and sucking on it. I guess that I was made for sucking cocks, as I got it all the way down my throat from the start. The time stood still, and we both enjoyed the entire situation. He started to breath deeper and deeper, until he maoned and delievered a big load. As I had tasted my own cum many times now, it felt natural to swallow. Every time later he was visitting or sleeping over, he let me suck him. We also once tried to see if I could get his cock in my ass, but as I found it to painfull we stopped even before he got the head of his cock inside. The last time we played together was in 1994.That year he met the girl who later became his wife.
I really loved to suck, but also was curious on getting fucked but the pain stopped me. At the age of 25 I met a guy who knew how to go on with someone who had never been fucked before. He was patient, and thought me how to relax. The way he did it made me love anal sex. One of the best experiences I have had with anal sex was when a friend technically raped me, as he woke me up by showing is cock all the way inside my ass. I just remember he said "this gonna hurt". Though " forced entry " and that I really prefer to wash my ass before anal sex, I let him carry on. He fucked me for allmost two hours, and so far he is the onlyone who have manged to fuck me to an orgasm.
I love to play with big cocks. The bigger the better - though size is not every thing.
I have loved suck cock ever since I first sucked a classmate when we were 15 years old.
I love cum - to get it in my mouth, my ass, over my face - and to watch someone shoot a load.
I love getting fucked, especially to get a huge cock up my ass. As I am 90% bottom, I also like to fuck sometimes when my mood is right.
I prefer being fucked bare back, and love having someone breed my ass.
Pictures depicting sexual activities had to be censored. Earlier, pictures showing an erect penis also would have the black stripe concealing it
My interest for (gay) porn
I have been interested in porn since I was around 8 years, after the first time I discovered an adult magazine while snooping in my stepfathers home office. It was, offcourse, a heterosexual magazine, and not of the type you could buy in a shop in Norway. This was a hardcore magazine depicting sex. I did not understand what was going on in many of the pictures, especially I could not understand why a lady would take someones penis into her mouth. For the pictures where a guy shot his load, I thought he was peeing. When my mother found out that I had taken the magazine, she got furious. Off course, when I learned that porn was "forbidden", it became even more exciting.
Later, when we were visitting the parents of my mothers boyfriend, I came over his younger brother´s pile of erotic magazines. These were the type of magazines available in Norwegian shops, mostly “Aktuell rapport”, “Cats” and “Lek”. This was in the same period I had discovered that boys were more exciting than girls. I did not fancy “Cats” as it was a male heterosexual magazine only showing pictures of nude women. “Aktuell rapport” and “Lek” were primarily based on a heterosexual audience, but also had a few gay erotic novels and some pictures of guys together with girls.
As mentioned, in Norway all pictures of an erect penis or pictures showing any sexual activitiey was censored. It was also “Aktuel rapport” that had pages with overview over porn movies for sale from aborad. Even though every video cover had been censored, I could look at these pages for a long time hoping to find some pictures that had been missed from the censor.
In the late 80´s censor of erect cocks stopped, as long as it did not depict a sexual activity. From I was 16, I started to buy the magazine “Cupido”. This magazine was published for a male and female audience, and also contained good gay erotic novels, and more pictures of nude guys than other magazines.
Buying my first hardcore gay magazine and a gay movie
In 1991 me and a classmate went on interrail for 14 days during the summer vacation. The plan was to travel around in France, and to get there we first had to go by train to Copenhagen and spend a few hours there before the next train.
I went to a small shop to get some snacks and magazines for the journey. I got quite surprised to find that they sold a gay magazine named “Cock”, and that it was on display on the counter together with other magazines. On the front page there was a guy showing off his huge cock. I did not dare to go directly for the gay magazine, and as soon as I was the only customer in the shop I picked up a couple of non-erotic magazine, a number of Danish Cupido, and "Cock". My nerves disappared when I noticed that the clerk did not even lift an eyebrow of someone bying a gay magazine.
On the trip back to Norway we once again had to make a stop in Copenhagen, and this time I went to an adult bookstore and bought some more gay magazines. The magazines were hidden throughly at the bottom of my backpack as I feared that my mother would want to take care of dirty laundry as soon as I was back home. Anyway, I finnally had some gay porn magazines without censor.
The summer of 1992 me and my classmate went was back to Denmark by car. Our plan was to drive around between different small cites and sleep at hostels. One of the cities visited had 3 of 4 shops named "Sex supermarket"
Offcourse a sex supermarked made me quite curious and I wanted to check that out. While my classmate browsed the heterosexual part of the shops, I now went directly for the shelves with gay features. The lady running the place was a very friendly grandma, and told me that it was also possible to hire a movie to watch in a private video cabin. That was at the time outside my comfort zone, so I rather decided to buy a couple of bargin deals on VHS and some second hand movies and rather watch when at back home.
I finally got to watch a gay porn movie. I don´t think I even finnished the movie before I had jacked off and shot a load.
Visitting Denmark was a like a dream. Cock was sold in ordinary stores, while the more hard-core magazines in sex shops.
Used to allways see a black stripe over an erect cock, buying magazines in Denmark was a dream.
The first gay VHS I bought visitting a sexshop in Denmark. It is also the first gay movie I ever watched.
The Danes had a much more liberal attitude to porn than in Norway. You could not find a magazine like this in Norway.
One of the movies on the "That boy next door" VHS from Nova. This scene became one of my favouries, and I still watch it sometimes. Though I now have got this movie on a computer, I have kept the original VHS.
Coming out
For many years there were only very few close friends who knew my big secret.
I lived my life well hidden in the closet, pretending that I liked girls. The questions "have you ever fucked a girl" and "are you gay" were raised several times as I had never been seen hooking up with a girl. I usually answered that I "was not into one night stands and hookups, and that I was waiting to find for the right one".
For many years my best friend was a good cover, and most friends also believed that we were a couple
.
As I was very deep into my closet, I did not dare to make any attempt of anythink that could make someone suspect for being gay. I would "look at girls" and watch straight porn. When I was alone, I would watch gay porn and wank. As I was afraid of getting my cover blown, I did not make any hookups with guys. From 1992 to 1998 I only had sex two or three times, including the last time me and my former classmate met.
I was told there were some rumours going in that I was "not completely straight". This was based on friends having observed that I had been visitting a gay bar, and someone who had observed me making out with a guy. In 1998 I asked a colleague who knew that I was gay if there were anyone else that knew my secret. His answer was short; "Kristian, everybody knows. We are just waiting for you to ge the hell out of your closet!". From that moment, in March 1998, I regarded my self as open for friends and collegaues. However, the big secret still had to be broken for my family.
During the summer of 1998 I decided that it was time to tell my mother, especially as she was more and more talking about a friend of me who she dreamt of getting as a daughter in law. Together with her I finally told my mother that there would never be a daughter in law, but possibly a son in law some day. I think my mother took it quite good, though she immediately poured her self a drink.
In 2007 I went in to my first serious relationship. As I was known among friends, and the most of the gays in Bergen of being a superslut, they made a bet that the relationship would last for maybe 6 months. Let it be told that we still are a couple, and that my mother is very found of her son in law.
I am totally open about being gay with friend and collegaues, though I will never introduec my self as gay, but when people ask me about my wife when they know I am married, I will tell them that I have a husband.
Open relationships and homemade gay porn
During the first years of my relationship I did not have sex with any other than my boyfriend. However, I got "bored" by traditional sex and only having sex with same person, especially when I have a much higher sexual lust then a boyfriend.
There is no secret that I started to hook up with other guys for sex only. I was very discrete about it, and never met anyone at home. It would be hookups in car, outdoor, at someones place or in a toilet.
In 2012 my boyfriend, who happend to have guessed the PIN code for my phone, found a SMS. When he confronted me withg the SMS, it also came out that he had also secretly had been meeting a guy. Especially, if I had been away from home due to my job, he had been visitting a guy or had him over.
I thought my relationship was over, while he just asked if we could be honest with each others, and we decied to enter an opemn relationship. The rule was not to have guys coming over when one were not home alone, or invite anyone to the hotelroom when travelling. The same summer we also made out first visit to a gay saune together, though cruising it seperatly as we have very different preferences.
In 2015, when I was home alone, I invited a mate over as he wanted me to suck him and to fuck me. At the moment I had made my first porn profile, posting some movies of me wanking on xTube. After having sucked him for a while, I told him that I would like to suck him while filming as I was curious on making my own porn and wanted a movie of my self with a cock in my mouth. He approved, given that I would not show his face.
I held my mobile phone in one hand, with the camera in selfie mode, while sucking on his cock. I did not think about camera angle, just that I wanted a movie with my self witha cock in my mouth. I did a small editing of the movie, and uploaded the movie just to see what people would think of it. The feedbacks clearly have me the inspiration to make a new movie - though it took 2 years before doing so.
Not a "quality" recording. Anyway it is the first time I got a movie and pictures of my self with a cock in my mouth. The full movie is uploaded to the "movies" page
Most of my early movies would only be of me wanking.
Why do you expose your self like this?
Not very long time after I posted the video, the question came up. Some thought that it might have been an attempt of black mail, but I clearly assured them that the movie had been posted by me.
The next movies were a few movies of me wanking, until I posted a new movie in 2015.
During a meeting with a superior is was informed that a message of concern had been raised about me, and the question was once again why I would expose my self.
And you might still wonder and have the same question still remain: Why do I expose my self like this?
Let me give my top 4 reasons:
1. Glory and fame:
When I receive messages like "Hey, you are this Norwegian guy making porn, are´nt you?", I feel that I am getting
noticed
.
2. I feel that I am not attractive and not goodlooking:
But I receive messages from people who have watched my movies, and who think that I am hot.
3. Increase amount of amateur porn: The interest for amateur porn rather than for the mainstream porn from the major porn companies is increasing, and I want to contribute to increase the amount of amateur porn. Especially for Norwegian amateur gay porn.
4. I like it: Love showing how I please a hot guy, and how I enjoy sucking and getting fucked.
If you like my porn, you´ll watch it - If you dont like it, you´ll skip it and watch something ese.
More movies will follow